ThePanda

Bah I wrote a bunch of stuff before, then force restarted my computer, managed to lose most of it, deleted what was left, and am forced to restart. Highlights so far, went out to dinner on Wednesday, met person who knows Don Knuth, was impressed by person who knew Don Knuth, Italian food, and other such things. Had a German exam today, was freaked out until the beginning of the test, was freaked out post test, didn’t much care, it’s my first chapter test, and I can count in German, so yay for that (hell I couldn’t reasonably claim the ability to do so in hindi until well into my fifth year of trying to learn the bloody language, am still not capable of claiming said ability in Oriya, and umm sanskrit, hmm sanskrit, haha). Have lost $75 in taxes (from like $180) to the Federal Government, the State Government, the disabled, and medicare, while still not being eligible for NSF REUs or much of anything else, which is kind of sad. Received my first topology assignment, found parts to be really simple, other parts to be weird only because how it’s worded, nearly declared weird love-hate relationship with formal mathematical proof, decided most of topology is fun, let it be at that.

I am annoyed by something, let’s see, I am annoyed about annoying little bugger who claims to be a “old-school” hax0rz, am annoyed by the completely weird distinctions between what Matlab and Maple find acceptable as input, and my inability to get the bloody Mathematica kernel to run, and the stupid change in licensing which now requires my computer to be owned or leased by Brown before I can actually download the bloody Mathematica file. I am annoyed by über long vector triple products which produce wrong results, I am annoyed by having to do vector triple products this late into college, I am annoyed by my current dislike for calculations (no math doesn’t involve too many calculations, talk about abstract enough bullshit and you are talking math, math rules, people who believe otherwise don’t see the inherent beauty of certain things, the inherent beauty of explaining how an open cylinder is inherently the same thing as a circle with two cut out circles), and I am especially annoyed by philosophical questions about what is fiction (no it isn’t simple or precisely described, whoever told you it was lied, lied you hear me). Oh I am also generally annoyed by the existence of such things as Friday nights, though currently I am really happy about this being a Friday night, go figure… I am also annoyed about all those people who called me annoying in class, like what the hell am I supposed to do, either I am the “overconfident, impenetrable, arrogant” SOB they don’t want around, or I am annoying and should shut up, bah, and umm some things are perfectly clear and obvious, they are to me, hence will be pronounced such by me, if they are not for other people it’s someone else’s problem not mine. Certain questions are stupid and should not be asked…

I bought new shoes yesterday, I am not sure why that would interest you, but it interests me, I have new hiking boots, and snow boots. I also spent like 20 bucks on buying a military surplus, woolen trenchcoat that comes up to my ankles and makes me happy, if only because it is grey and has shiny buttons. I have not had any chocolates today, or in the last week, and have been told by people that I use too much of the mouth freshener thing Listerine produces, and drink too much soda, both categories of people do other things in excess, and never hear anything about it from me, is kind of sad. I am generally annoyed about a lot of things right now, and hence this entry currently sounds more like angry rants than anything else. Well it’s my blog, go figure. Oh and all of Thayer and most of Providence seems to be out of Gore-Tex shells from North Face, like are we facing a jacket shortage here or something (I know post New Orleans this is bad).

I currently wish I could find a hiking spot, and someone to hike with, so I could go hiking when Columbus Day arrived, I also sort of wish I could learn X-country skiing, but that’s mostly wistful thinking. I had also earlier this semester assured myself that I would carry my camera everywhere and record somethings I have always wanted to, the street musicians and stuff, and umm I haven’t so far, I discovered I had been carrying my camera around for a while in my bag, needless to say it had remained untouched, kind of sad. I had plans of doing vast amounts of research into people at Caltech, studying abroad inside the United States, and making a trip to Montreal come Spring Break if I made enough money TAing Math-54. I am currently attending 7 courses, am registered for five, am TAing one, and plan on attending the other one for as long as I can, if only because it’s fun. Handy dandy calculator just proved that making a trip to Montreal on a semester’s worth of TAing earning is not possible, I really don’t want to do anything else, so whatever, I might not go to Montreal, besides going to Montreal requires visas and such things, things better avoided. So I am looking for possibly pretty place to go to for Spring Break, possible choices would be appreciated. HSS might actually stay back for Thanksgiving, and we might be doing stuff, and if he does, I am going to try getting turkey stuff, so we can do actual turkey on turkey day. I really should have gone to that improv show I missed so I could do homework which I currently am not, mostly because I am thinking about it. Of late my thought processes have varied between thinking about math, thinking about weird freakish scary stuff, and not thinking at all, I am not sure about how good a thing this is. The fact that I talked about math post work, at midnight, at the Gate yesterday, is sort of funny, the fact that I talked about panopticons with HCA yesterday is sort of amusing, the fact that she kept joking about how she was having dinner with her “TA” is even more amusing, the fact that ADC did not react to this is sort of un-ADC like.

I can’t seem to find my Swiss Army knife, sort of annoying, though I am sure it’s on my desk somewhere, perhaps under the piles of other things I have. Oh and please don’t call because of this blog entry, I am letting off steam, I really am fine, perhaps have been drenched a few times, but darn I am OK…

Hmm so I finally managed to complete my homework, there was an amusing incident with a professor over the phone yesterday, and mildly intriguing stuff through the weekend. I don’t even know whether I should post this anymore or not, it’s all in the past, things have gone back to being quite not so weird and annoying anymore, though there still remain annoying parts of this world, and such things…

Unsurely Yours
Ze Panda

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